BABY

BABY!!
AS I GROW AND WONDER THRU LIFE IVE ALWAYS WONDERED WHO WILL I LOVE OR WILL BE THE ONE…IM NOT FOR SURE IF I FOUND THE ONE BUT THERE IS ONE SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE NOW WE ALWAYS TALKING AND INTERESTED IN EACH OTHERS LIFES. I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO BE WITH YOU. I DO WANA BE WITH YOU, EVERYTIME I TALK TO YOU I FEEL BETTER AND BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. I KNOW WE BOTH HAVE BEEN HURT BY THE PEOPLE WE CAME IN CONTACT WITH, BUT WE BOTH MAKE EACH OTHER FEEL BETTER. WHEN I TALK TO YOU IM ON A WHOLE NEW DIFFERENT LEVEL, WHEN IM SAD YOUR THERE TO CHEER ME UP, YOUR GOODMORNINGS AND GOOD NIGHTS ARE SO EVERLASTING KIND. ALL THIS SHOWS ME YOU CARE FOR ME. I HAD OTHERS TELL ME THINGS HYPE MY HEAD UP AND LEAVE ME IN DISAPPOINTMENT, WITH YOU IT’S A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY. OUR PHONE CALLS UP ALL NIGHT ON THE PHONE TALKING ABOUT THE SILLIEST CRAP EVER. OUR LIVES MAY BE DIFFERENT BUT WE HAVE ALITTLE BIT IN COMMON. I KNOW U HAV THAT BAD SIDE A LITTLE AND I THINKS THAT’S WHY I KEEP FALLIN FOR YOU EVEN MORE, IM A DARE DEVIL MY SELF SO WHEN YOU TEST ME TRUST I WON’T BACK DOWN AND YOU’RE THE SAME WAY TO. I CARE ABOUT YOU SO MUCH TO LET YOU LEAVE MY LIFE SO SOON!! I KNOW IM DOING MY COLLEGE THING BUT DON’T LET THAT STOP US FROM BEING “ONE” I KNOW IF OUR PATHS COME ACROSS ONCE AGAIN WE CAN MAKE “TWO” BECOME “ONE”. DON’T THINK OF THE NEGATIVE , THINK POSITIVE I FIGHT FOR WHATS IMPORTANT AND YOU ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME. THE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE HOLD PIECES OF MY HEART, AND YOU OWN A PIECE OF MY HEART. I DON’T WANT TO RUSH I DON’T WANT A BEAUTIFUL THING TO BE WAISTED OR DESTROYED. FIRST I WAS “AFRAID OF LOVE”, NOW IM “SPEEDING FOR LOVE.” EVERYDAY I TALK TO YOU MAKES ME WANT TO GO “ALL THE ABOVE” FOR MY DREAMS. I WANNA SEE YOU IN “THE SPOTLIGHT” DOING YOUR THANG AND MAKING YOUR DREAMS A REALITY. YOU’RE MY “MEDICINE” TO MY CURE OF LOVE. WHEN THE SUN RISES I THINK OF YOU, WHEN THE SUN SETS I DREAM ABOUT YOU. YOUR LOVE AND CARE FOR ME IS MY POT OF GOLD IS FILLED TO THE VERY TOP. I KNOW I CANT SAY THE “L” WORD TO YOU NOW BUT IN A CARING WAY I LOVE YOU.

2010

LIFE HAS ITS UPS AND DOWNS, IN MY LIFE I HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS ALSO SINCE 2010 CAME IVE EXPERIENCE SOME CHANGES. i BROKE UP WITH MY GIRL i MET SOME NEW PEOPLE AND BEEN EXPOSE TO THINGS, IM NOT ALL THE WAY HAPPY FOR. I THOUGHT THE PERSON I WAS TALKING TO WAS DIFFERENT AND "REAL" BUT IT TURN OUT TO BE WRONG. I FEEL LIKE I WAS USED AND ABUSED. I THOUGHT WE WAS COOL BUT I GUESS NOT. NOW THAT I KNOW WHAT OUR STATUS IS I CAN LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES.I DON'T HAT THE PERSON AT ALL BUT F**K U FOR USING ME, TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME IGNORING ME WHEN I DID NO WRONG. BUT HEY THAT'S ONE LESS FAKE ASS MUTHA F**KA IN MY LIFE. I THANK MY BESTFRIENDS FOR BEING THERE AND HELPING ME OUT WHEN I NEED THE HELP.
WHEN MY UNCLE PASSED IT WAS A WAKE UP CALL TO TAKE MY LIFE SERIOUS. HIS DEATH WAS SURPRISING AND SHOCKING. I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS, IM STILL GRIEVING SECRETLY BUT IN TIME I WILL BE FINE.
I WANNA TELL YA ABOUT 2SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. 1 I MET BACK IN SEPTEMBER EVEN THOUGH WE WENT THROUGH OUR UPS AND DOWNS IT HAS LEAD US TO BECOME EVEN CLOSER. 2010 IS OUR YEAR TO SHINE, TO SHOW THAT WE ARE GOING TO BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, YOU KNOW I GOT CHU. DON EVA GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS I KNOW YOU GOING BE THE BIG SUPER STAR MAKING YA MUSIC AND DOING YA THANG. YOU ALWAYS DER FOR ME AND UR LOVE IS EVER SO LASTING.
ANOTHER PERSON I JUST MET, I FEEL I LIKE I KNEW YOU FOREVER, U CONSTANTLY MAKING ME SMILE AND LAUGH, I WISH WE DIDNT LIVE SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER. WHY ARE THE GOOD ONES SO FAR WAY. U ARE WAY BETTER THEN THE FAKE MUTHA FUCKAS AND WHORES HERE IN CINCINNATI. ALL MY FEELINGS FOR YOU ARE RUSHING AND GROWING SO FAST. THE TIME WE TALK AND GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER, THE MORE I FALL FOR U EVEN MORE, EVEN THOUGH WE ARE FAR AWAY IN DISTANCE WE ARE CLOSER THAN YOU THINK. LOVE MAY TAK ITS COARSE AND INNER SEED ON US AS TIME PROGRESSES. I JUS WANNA TELL U THAT U'LL BE IN MY HEART FROM THIS DAI FORTH NO MATTA WHA ANYBODY SAYS ITS ALL ABOUT US. MY SPECIAL "CUPID LOVE"

~Finding a New Me~

Wow I cant believe it just wen i turn 18 i realize i need to be a better person. I need to be a better brother son cousin nephew grandson just all the above. I cant believe the way i been acting. Don't get me wrong but some of the time i been acting good but some of time i been acting bad. I feel if i give advice to others I should take my own advice and use it. I need to realize that I can be there for others but be there for myself also. I no I'm realizing it now but I need to make a change and start continuing to do right like i was already doing. I'm sadden by the people who I thought were my friends. But brighten up by the people I met and gave me a better look on how i need to act and treat people in my life. Thank you to my sister and Nikki She stay giving me the better out look on life as it is as a view point of someone in my age group. I also my other brother and sister for be able to cater me wen I'm down and out. Sometimes life can get stressful but you need to hang in there and get up and cont. to live ya life right. I know I'm not the perfect young man i make mistakes many mistakes but they help me understand that I need to stop rushing and take my time in life. Everything isn't going to happen at my time but on God's time for me. So I promise this to the very special people in my life to strive to live my life right and be an example to them and to others that don't know me that well.
Maybe my good qualities will rub off them. Some have already did. I'm proud of all my accomplishments in life. And i plan on keeping all them accomplishments. Now as I close All dis i just wrote to you all this was on my mind my heart and my soul and to let it out is a great feeling. To walk around knowing this feelings are out there are pretty awesome. Let people know how you feel now. Don't keep it in. To all my family and friends who read this.. I will always be there for you know matter what the cause is well let me refraze this to all my "REAL FAMILY AND FRIENDS" I will be there for you no matter what the situation is. You got me and I got you.. if you need me I need you what I have is also what you have. don't hesitate to ask me anything. I will do the best of my ability to give you the most honest answer anybody else would give. Ya know who ya are. My real family and friends fa life thank you God for putting these people in my life to guide me into the person I am today.

Real Friends (They Like Ma Fam)

Friends some are there for you and some arent. BUT YA REAL FRIENDS GOT CHA BACK FROM THICK AND THEN NO MATTA THE SITUATION IS.. I HAVE A FEW FRIENDS IMMA NAME HERE. WHO ARE ALWAYS DER FOR ME.. WE MAY HAVE HAD HER GOODS AND BADS BUT WE ALWAYS REMAIN GOOD.. I JUS APPRECIATE THESE PPL.. THEY ALWAYS KEEPIN ME UP AND GOING EVEN IF IM DOWN THEY ALWAYS DER. ASKING .. ME LA'MONT WHAS WRONG, LA'MONT HOW ARE YA, LA'MONT HOW IS YA FAM.. THEY JUS ALWAYS DER TO ASK ME IF IM GOOD OR JUST YU NO DER.. FIRST: LaMont DIS MY BOI I CAN TALK TO HIM ABOUT ANYTHING NO MATTA WHA. ALWAYS GOT MA BACK. Dj: DIS CAT IS FUNNY RIGHT HERE WE STAY TALKIN BOUT THE GOOD OL TIMES OR TIMES WE HAD FUN WITH GIRLS DIS MA BOI FOR LIFE NO THAT. Kaylah: DIS MA GIRL A.K.A MY LIL SIS AWW WE JUS HAD SO MUCH HISTORY TOGETHER SHE IS A CHARACTER SHE STAY MAKEN ME LAUGH AND ALWAYS IS A GOOD FRIEND TO TALK TO NO MATTA WHA. Keith: DIS MA YELLOW NIGGA RIGHT HERE HE YELLOWER DENT THE SUN HAHAH ME AND HIM GROW UP TOGETHER WE LOST TOUCH AT FIRST BUT NOW WE AT THE SAME SCHOOL AND WE BEEN BESTFRIENDS SINCE.. WE HAD OUR GOOD AND BAD BUT WE STILL TIGHT AS EVER DIS MY NIGGA RIGHT HERE NO MATTA WHA. Will: HA DIS CAT IS A PLAYER I CALL HIM THE G BECAUSE HE A G AT GETTING ALL THE3 GIRLS HE TALK TO AT ONE PLACE AT ONE TIME AND THEY ALL COOL WITH EACH OTHER HA WOW DIS MA BOI RIGHT HERE STAY WITH THE LADIES. Andrea: ITS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT YOU LEFT CINCINNATI.. W/O ME SAYIN GOODBYE.. ITS OK WE A SEE EACH OTHER.. WE STILL BESTIES.. I MISS YA SO MUCH WE HAD SO MUCH FUN WHEN YOU WAS HERE GOING OUT HANGIN OUT GOING TO SCOPE AND HOMECOMIN THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN. WE WAS SUPPOSE TO GO TO PROM NEX YEAR BUT THATS NOT GOINNA HAPPEN ;(. I MISS YA AND I LOVE YA SEE YA BESTIE. Markitta: WE USED TO GOTO ELEMENTARY TOGETHER HA DEN WE DEPARTED OUR WAYS NOW WE MEET AGAIN. WE STRIVE TO MAKE IT AND BECOME SUCCESSFUL ONE DAY IN LIFE AND WE WILL. WE WANT GIVE UP. I GIVE HER ADVICE SHE GIVE ME ADVICE WE KEEP IT GOING.. WE WILL MAKE IT AND BECOME THE SUCCESSFUL YOUNG MAN AND WOMAN OF TODAYS WORLD. Ryan: WE ALSO HAD OUR GOODS AND BADS BUT WE MADE IT THROUGH WE ALSO STRIVE FOR THE BEST AND THE BEST WE WILL GET YOU NO THIS MY BOI WE ALWAYS DER FOR EACH OTHER NO MATTA WHA.

Keith, Trevor, Nicole, Nicole, Keith, Kelly! Family Forever

My God brothers My sister and my God sisters I love all these ppl Trevor the nicoles, keith, and kelly these are ma babes my lil ones expect the skinny one she close to my age but the rest are I will do anything for them they are my heart they is ma fam u mess wit ma fam u mess wit me no doubt i love every one of them. I will go out and beyond for them.. we always havin mass fun together we are more lik siblings then cousins even doe we live far away. i can imagine us as adults now our kids are gonna be close like us fa show family must stick together blood is thicker then water we will teach our kids that. they will have each others backs and protect one another and build each other up. thas was fam suppose to do. together we can make it and be a fam. and thats wha me trevor the nicoles, keith, and kelly are.. FAMILY forever. BROTHER AND SISTERS FOREVER love you all with ma heart.

FAM,FRIENDS

MA FAM AND CLOSE FRIENDS.. WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT THESE PPL.. IDK U TELL ME.. THESE PPL HELP ME TO BECOME THE PERSON I AM NOW WITHOUT THEM WHO WOULD I BE. SOME OF THE PEOPLE IN THE VIDEO REALLY MAKE MY LIFE SPECIAL JUST BY THEM BEING IN MY LIFE AND BEIN THERE FOR ME. I LUV THEM MY MAMA DADDY SIS BRO GOD BROS GOD'S SIS'S YA STAY TALKING TO ME AND KEEPIN ME UP AND GROUNDED. I LOVE YA.. WHA WOULD I DO WITH OUT YA. I CAN PICTURE US NOW IN THE FUTURE GOING TO EACH OTHERES HOUSES AND OUR KIDS JUS PLAYIN AND WE HAVING A GOOD TIME. WE THE DEFINITION OF FAMILY WE STAY CLOSE TOGETHER AND WE ALWAYS WILL NO MATTER WHAT EVEN THOSE WE ALL COUSINS WE FEEL MORE THAN COUSINS WE BROTHERS AND SISTERS. I LUV EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YA. LIK I TOLD ANDRE WE GOING BE ON AIM, MYSPACE, BLOGGER UNTIL WE LIKE 40YRS OLD HAHAHA.. WITH OUR OWN KIDS.. LOVE YA TO DEATH..AND MY CLOSE FRIENDS I LOVE YA TO YA MA REAL FRIENDS TO THE END WE CLOSER THEN EVER NO MATTER WHA..

Sex

SEX ITS A BIG THING THATS HAPPENS IN LIFE NOW.. EVERYBODY THINKS ABOUT IT.. I THINK ABOUT IT BUT IM NOT GOING TO DO IT YET. IM WAITING UNTIL I GET MARRIED I REALLY DONT NEED SEX. I DON'T WANT BABIES NOW EITHER. DONT GET ME WRONG A BABY IS A BLESSING BUT THERE IS A TIME FOR A BABY IN YOUR LIFE AND A TIME NOT TO HAVE A BABY AND DURING YUR TEENAGE YRS A BABY ISN'T THE RIGHT TIME. SEX.. IS SOMETHING THAT IS SHARED BETWEEN A MALE AND A FEMALE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL.. THAT SHOULD HAPPEN BETWEEN A MARRIED COUPLE. THERE ARE ALL KINDS OF STUFF OUT IN THE WORLD THAT CAN MESS YOUR LIFE UP JUST BY HAVING SEX ONE TIME WITH THE WRONG PERSON. JUST IF ITS ON YOUR MIND JUST FOCUS ON YOUR DREAMS AND WAIT TO HAVE SEX. SEX ISN'T IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE NOW SURVIVING AND MAKKING IT IS. SO WEN U THINK ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH SOMEBODY STOP AND THINK WILL THIS CHANGE MA LIFE FOREVER. YES IT WILL BUT THERE ARE CONSEQUENCES IF YOU DO DECIDE TO PURSUE SEX AT A EARLY AGE.