BABY

BABY!!
AS I GROW AND WONDER THRU LIFE IVE ALWAYS WONDERED WHO WILL I LOVE OR WILL BE THE ONE…IM NOT FOR SURE IF I FOUND THE ONE BUT THERE IS ONE SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE NOW WE ALWAYS TALKING AND INTERESTED IN EACH OTHERS LIFES. I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO BE WITH YOU. I DO WANA BE WITH YOU, EVERYTIME I TALK TO YOU I FEEL BETTER AND BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. I KNOW WE BOTH HAVE BEEN HURT BY THE PEOPLE WE CAME IN CONTACT WITH, BUT WE BOTH MAKE EACH OTHER FEEL BETTER. WHEN I TALK TO YOU IM ON A WHOLE NEW DIFFERENT LEVEL, WHEN IM SAD YOUR THERE TO CHEER ME UP, YOUR GOODMORNINGS AND GOOD NIGHTS ARE SO EVERLASTING KIND. ALL THIS SHOWS ME YOU CARE FOR ME. I HAD OTHERS TELL ME THINGS HYPE MY HEAD UP AND LEAVE ME IN DISAPPOINTMENT, WITH YOU IT’S A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY. OUR PHONE CALLS UP ALL NIGHT ON THE PHONE TALKING ABOUT THE SILLIEST CRAP EVER. OUR LIVES MAY BE DIFFERENT BUT WE HAVE ALITTLE BIT IN COMMON. I KNOW U HAV THAT BAD SIDE A LITTLE AND I THINKS THAT’S WHY I KEEP FALLIN FOR YOU EVEN MORE, IM A DARE DEVIL MY SELF SO WHEN YOU TEST ME TRUST I WON’T BACK DOWN AND YOU’RE THE SAME WAY TO. I CARE ABOUT YOU SO MUCH TO LET YOU LEAVE MY LIFE SO SOON!! I KNOW IM DOING MY COLLEGE THING BUT DON’T LET THAT STOP US FROM BEING “ONE” I KNOW IF OUR PATHS COME ACROSS ONCE AGAIN WE CAN MAKE “TWO” BECOME “ONE”. DON’T THINK OF THE NEGATIVE , THINK POSITIVE I FIGHT FOR WHATS IMPORTANT AND YOU ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME. THE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE HOLD PIECES OF MY HEART, AND YOU OWN A PIECE OF MY HEART. I DON’T WANT TO RUSH I DON’T WANT A BEAUTIFUL THING TO BE WAISTED OR DESTROYED. FIRST I WAS “AFRAID OF LOVE”, NOW IM “SPEEDING FOR LOVE.” EVERYDAY I TALK TO YOU MAKES ME WANT TO GO “ALL THE ABOVE” FOR MY DREAMS. I WANNA SEE YOU IN “THE SPOTLIGHT” DOING YOUR THANG AND MAKING YOUR DREAMS A REALITY. YOU’RE MY “MEDICINE” TO MY CURE OF LOVE. WHEN THE SUN RISES I THINK OF YOU, WHEN THE SUN SETS I DREAM ABOUT YOU. YOUR LOVE AND CARE FOR ME IS MY POT OF GOLD IS FILLED TO THE VERY TOP. I KNOW I CANT SAY THE “L” WORD TO YOU NOW BUT IN A CARING WAY I LOVE YOU.

2010

LIFE HAS ITS UPS AND DOWNS, IN MY LIFE I HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS ALSO SINCE 2010 CAME IVE EXPERIENCE SOME CHANGES. i BROKE UP WITH MY GIRL i MET SOME NEW PEOPLE AND BEEN EXPOSE TO THINGS, IM NOT ALL THE WAY HAPPY FOR. I THOUGHT THE PERSON I WAS TALKING TO WAS DIFFERENT AND "REAL" BUT IT TURN OUT TO BE WRONG. I FEEL LIKE I WAS USED AND ABUSED. I THOUGHT WE WAS COOL BUT I GUESS NOT. NOW THAT I KNOW WHAT OUR STATUS IS I CAN LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES.I DON'T HAT THE PERSON AT ALL BUT F**K U FOR USING ME, TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME IGNORING ME WHEN I DID NO WRONG. BUT HEY THAT'S ONE LESS FAKE ASS MUTHA F**KA IN MY LIFE. I THANK MY BESTFRIENDS FOR BEING THERE AND HELPING ME OUT WHEN I NEED THE HELP.
WHEN MY UNCLE PASSED IT WAS A WAKE UP CALL TO TAKE MY LIFE SERIOUS. HIS DEATH WAS SURPRISING AND SHOCKING. I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS, IM STILL GRIEVING SECRETLY BUT IN TIME I WILL BE FINE.
I WANNA TELL YA ABOUT 2SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. 1 I MET BACK IN SEPTEMBER EVEN THOUGH WE WENT THROUGH OUR UPS AND DOWNS IT HAS LEAD US TO BECOME EVEN CLOSER. 2010 IS OUR YEAR TO SHINE, TO SHOW THAT WE ARE GOING TO BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, YOU KNOW I GOT CHU. DON EVA GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS I KNOW YOU GOING BE THE BIG SUPER STAR MAKING YA MUSIC AND DOING YA THANG. YOU ALWAYS DER FOR ME AND UR LOVE IS EVER SO LASTING.
ANOTHER PERSON I JUST MET, I FEEL I LIKE I KNEW YOU FOREVER, U CONSTANTLY MAKING ME SMILE AND LAUGH, I WISH WE DIDNT LIVE SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER. WHY ARE THE GOOD ONES SO FAR WAY. U ARE WAY BETTER THEN THE FAKE MUTHA FUCKAS AND WHORES HERE IN CINCINNATI. ALL MY FEELINGS FOR YOU ARE RUSHING AND GROWING SO FAST. THE TIME WE TALK AND GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER, THE MORE I FALL FOR U EVEN MORE, EVEN THOUGH WE ARE FAR AWAY IN DISTANCE WE ARE CLOSER THAN YOU THINK. LOVE MAY TAK ITS COARSE AND INNER SEED ON US AS TIME PROGRESSES. I JUS WANNA TELL U THAT U'LL BE IN MY HEART FROM THIS DAI FORTH NO MATTA WHA ANYBODY SAYS ITS ALL ABOUT US. MY SPECIAL "CUPID LOVE"